i thought that i had forgotten

i thought, and i did. how very silly and unresponsive i feel now after absolutely not knowing how to tell you that that i feel is total nonsense. sometimes i wonder if it is just madness. i thought that i had written it all before, and maybe i have... sometimes i just want your world into my silence, other times i just want you. then i get distracted, and i imagine that i had forgotten you. we sit next to each other and it all stops. i want more of that.