have not given much sign of life recently...
had a long conversation with my brother today during which we discussed family issues and our own. we came up with the conclusion that somehow, we all have our secrets, even is these secrets are something that we only share with another person. it happens that there are facts to which we are the only living witness of their existence...am now thinking of the time when we met and how very unlikely and improbable our meeting was. sometimes i do wonder if there is something like fate or destiny... then i claimed to be counting the grains of sand in arabia. some time ago i met a man whom i found very interesting when i heard him speak at a conference that i was attending. i read a bit of what he writes and i thought that he had insights that very few people have. i got curious about his work and what he does. then later that year he and i were both speakers at another conference. one evening during that conference we sat across each other and i noticed for the first time that besides a brilliant intellect, there was also an interesting man there, and i thought nothing of it. the universe was bent on not letting things stand that way, and something happened that made me look at that man again. at the end of that year we met without either a group or work, but as two private individuals. meeting him was perhaps just as unlikely as it was meeting you even if in this case he does live in the same country, and his life and mine have strong parallels including the places where we have lived. there are human encounters that have a quality that seems rare. i feel blessed by the fact that i have had several such encounters. you do have a certain experience of me. i know for certain, that you have enriched and continue to enrich my life. recently i commented to him just before boarding a plane that often i am very distant and do keep people, in particular men, at quite a distance. he did not think so. i had to smile and think of you... it reminded me that with you, it had been that way. i dropped my guard, i wanted to know more about you. then i had to think again. there are a few men whom i have let into my life and with whom i have shared this life of mine intensely. you are a part of my life, not just a memory. you are the sunrise.
