scream

i want to scream

i want it to be loud

i want you to hear it

i want to scream

my scream:

i have a right to my own insanity!

it is all that i possess

i have nothing else

just this empty mind of mine

and

i want to scream

once

the desire is for silence

the desire is to disappear

the desire is to not exist

i am tired of words. they do not communicate

character after character

just abstractions vague empty

take a line. take its psychology

where are you? who am i?

what am i doing?

then close your eyes!

but you did not... you read. you keep on reading.

you wonder what is it that is not being said

what is it that i am not saying? what is it that you are not saying?

she hesitated, she did.

turn the page, do!

i am tired of thinking. i am tired of being a fucking genius. i am tired of you.

really, i am. i am.